Enlightenment

In the mirror, I see a face
a girl who looks exactly as me
I strive hard to make her laugh
but happy she just wouldnt be..

I set out the other day, made up my mind
to make a smile find its place on her worried face
I'd been lonely for so long, recalling that long lost lilt,
just wanted this soul to evade the pain i felt..

So I shopped here, n i shopped there
buying accessories to adorn those pretty hair
maybe a magnificient dress to wear
and a vial of perfume, exotic and rare..

Arrived real late at my tumbledown shack
offered her those presents, but she gave them back.
The grief in those eyes was something i couldnt read
Once a magnificent garden, nw overgrown with weeds..

Flabbergasted, I stood staring, while she returned the innocent gaze
my thoughts all astray in that magnificent ocular maze
subconsciously thwarting my efforts in all ways
A beautiful but subdued face, veiled by a purple haze..

Asked her the reason, demanded an explanation,
but, to my surprise, she gave none..
Tried convincing her, but she just wouldnt budge
vegenance or completion of a long lost grudge..

Myt determination bedraggled, but ego standind tall
I chose to walk away from that wall.
Enraged beyond words at the girl's hard stand
foolishly letting so many joys just slip through her hands..

A lone sun shone over the endless horizon
The distance between us grew with every stride
stealthily approachind darkness saw a rare sight
two best friends, separated by an inane pride..

However, as reality dawned
something inside me just cried
"Why could't I be more mature??"
I'll never be complete without her, no matter how hard I tried..

I was gonna tell her that I needed her
even if it meant eating humble pie
audible sobs exhibited the storm inside me
it became increasingly difficult to stifle my cry..

A sudden surge of emotions, spontaneously I swerved
those fingers pulled my hand out; a confession she deserved..
What met my eyes left me dazed
she had the same thoughts written over her face..

She needed me, just like i needed her
after all, a girl and her reflection, we were..
How could she be happy when I was sad??
I smiled at all those foolish notions I had..

being wrapped up in my own thoughts, I never realised
when I cast away a part of me
and transformed so much, I could'nt remember
who I was, or wanted to be..

Its only the almighty, who gives us inner stregth
to face the obstacles that come our way
You get from life what you put in
the best place to search for happiness is within..

Pearls of tears dropped down those pretty faces
our paths intertwined, leading to our destiny..
My prayers were answered, I wished no more
'coz I'd finally befriended the inner me..

TWILIGHT..

Twilight dwindles, night wakes up
I walk alone, amidst the grey meadows..
The stars seemed to have plotted a plan
To twinkle in hues unknown to many a man..

Darkness inspires a strange fright
A spell casted to seal the orange orb's light..
Nocturnal orchaeshtra soothes my ears
Bringing up memories buried deep for years...

Just like the silver line on the angel's wings
His lilt still sounds so beautiful and genuine..
Groping around in the pleasant darkness of something that seemed so right
A flash of reality; blinded by the sudden light..

Only the two souls know, what mystical bliss
Awaited in the hearts of those shrubs and trees..
Silent promises exchanged by those quivering lips
Fiery flame of passion nestled in entangled fingertips..

Alone I stand, amidst a thousand tears
A beautiful face streaked by trails of salty tears..
On me, they won't shower the rain of love
But send thunder n lightning bolts from above..

A chilly winter breeze makes the bushes sway
The wind plays with my tresses, while I wander off to yesterday..
Unspoken emotions hover above
One of the main reasons for the downfall of love..

My helpless mind longs to go back to the start
What if time stopped and began its run backwards??
I'd take back the abuses hurled, I'd kiss away the pain
I'd die a thousand deaths to live those moments again..

No matter how hard I force myself to stand
Without you by my side, alone I am..
Maybe our worst nightmares do have a way
Of coming true unexpectedly some day..

A familiar silhouette, I never imagined
Of all the places on earth, here you'd be..
Even though your stern face masks emotions intense,
I know that deep inside, you mourn for me..

Taking off those rose tinted glasses of fantasy,
The world now seems such a queer place to be;
So I quietly slink away in those shadows of gloom,
Not wanting you to notice me..

The broken heart begins its journey back home
Guess that's the way it was meant to be..
Two silent spectators of the irony of fate
So close, yet miles apart- YOU and ME...

So.. Random!!

A promise held close to the heart
A thousand pieces of those shattered dreams, which prick your bleeding feet as you try to move on, move ahead...
Try as hard as you can, the pain just doesn't subside..
That intricate blend of joy and playfulness
A whispered word of togetherness...
One final blow, which breaks the years of efforts taken...
One additional last breath needed, there’s so much left unsaid n undone!!
Joy, laughter, sorrow, pain..
Living death, fighting through the odds...
Seeing beyond the scars…
Making it work...
Trying level best to make things the way they were before..
Relations patched beyond recognition..
Scraps of fabric visible amidst the countless patches..
Your apologies- they don’t mean a thing!
Scribbling furiously on a paper, people stop and smile..
The innocent giggle of that chubby little child...
Why is this world so full of corruption??
No one to trust, but thy own self...
Why do I hate him so much??
No, I don’t hate him, but obviously I’m hurting...
A thousand unanswered questions...
At times, finding oneself so helpless...
Helpless... Hopeless... Lifeless...
Are circumstances really dat bad as you imagine them to be??
Life comes and goes...
Love it... Hate it... Live it... or Die...
Just like dat!!

MIRAGE.....

A tiny little blue bird, flying across the sky
Making it a point to ask every passer-by

Do you know the way to a place?
That has a red roof-top and a white fence
Surrounded by lush meadows and deep green trees
Ever alive with the chirping of birds and bees

In that haven, there lives a little girl
Who must be wondering where I could be
Sobbing fat salty pearls of tears
Waiting beside my cage near the cherry tree

I'd been selfish when I flew away
Never stopped even for a moment to think
Snatching a sole companion from a girl her age
How big a grief that angel would need to face!!

I was mesmerized by those thoughts of freedom
But now, looking back, I'm besieged by woe
Even if I'm crowned the sole master of this blue kingdom
What good is a life when you have no one to love you??

Little did I knew, when I broke free
That to return, I'll have to endure every plea
Mistakes I've committed, now I'll rectify
Can you please help me, Oh passer-by??

Maybe I do have a family somewhere
Parents and siblings who all crave for me
But the innocent love of that kid was pure and rare
What I had before was surely the best for me

They say birds are meant to fly in the sky
Till date, one staunch believer of this was me
No one ever told me the perils of flying alone
Now, by her side, I where I wanna be

Our life isn’t ours alone; to others we owe
A selfish heart can never beget selfless love
My prayers will be answered if she takes me back home
Else I’ll have to trudge unloved, all alone.

So, you see, I really have to make haste
Before her hurting heart replaces agony by hatred
I’m ashamed and remorseful, I have to say
So please help me, and show me the way..